maaaaaad about the boy

I hate it when people tell you proverbs with that smug smile , like they hold the secret to frigging being or something . But I hate admitting they're right even bloody more. Sore proverb In the hot seat today :

' If you stop looking for it you'll find it '

Maybe so in application to keys , your hair brush or your contact lens when It invariably finds you buy sticking to the bottom of your or someone else's foot. But what about in relation to people , more specifically men you click with ? I didn't think so either. Until now . When I stopped forcing dates with men I am completely apathetic about and not particularly attracted to in some cases . In the hope that I will Indeed not be alone on twitter , in my PJ's of a Saturday Night even if it is spent with someone that knows as well as I do it won't go any further . Funnily enough I got bored of that , ducked out of the dates I was held to by being my usual foul self and thought In the end a Bridget Jones experience was marginally better.

And then last week my loneliness and my usual haunt and my resolution to just give up looking totally just lead me to ( without sounding too Belle de Jour about it ) the gobble of gorgeousness that will now be known as ( drum roll please) The Boy . I'm not envisioning wedding bells and kids names but I am very excited that this feels very different from the rest , more like the last but with only the good things. He's very good looking , smart and into all the same sorts of things as me . Add the fact he's very sweet , thoughtful and old school about picking up tabs and looking after me . He oddly enough thinks I'm 'beautiful' too. He's a bit too good to be true ( theoretically) Or maybe In my warped head , A little too good for me. I'm not entirely 'maaaad about the boy ' but I think I could be persuaded into bordering on neurosis.

This has shook me up a little bit . I've been on a happy since we met which is really quiet amazing . I haven't felt an actual sense of well being consecutively for a week in years. So much so I was a bit bewildered for several days unable to identify that , the feeling was 'happy'. It seems to be a good kick in the arse . I can actually be bothered to go out of my way about this one , not only that I want to . We'll see where it goes on this top secret well thought out date of his but amazingly I might like it to at least go somewhere and if not , at least it'll have been a nice experience in the right direction.