I would say it's because he loves everything about you and he hates the thought of not having you in his life now he's found you, so he would do anything to keep hold of you. That's just my opinion though.

that's not a question though is it ?:) That's an opinion XD

okay I've had problems with people being rude, as long as you don't intend to do that, ask me something! :D

How does it feel to now have a guy who is crazy for you and would do anything within his power to make you happy?

pretty fucking amazing actually . I some times wonder what I did to deserve him .

okay I've had problems with people being rude, as long as you don't intend to do that, ask me something! :D

Were you a Michael Jackson fan?

who can honestly say that hand on heart there isnt one MJ track that dosent make you wanna get drunk and dance ? Even if he was an alleged pedo

okay I've had problems with people being rude, as long as you don't intend to do that, ask me something! :D

What was your favorite toy to play with as a child?

I had a cow hand puppet that I took EVERYWHERE even to my cousins wedding where I was bridesmaid , Gurmantrude had to be in the wedding photos as well .

okay I've had problems with people being rude, as long as you don't intend to do that, ask me something! :D

Do you believe in luck?

yeah usually I have vast amounts of the bad kind but alas *touch wood* I think Im past that very long streak

okay I've had problems with people being rude, as long as you don't intend to do that, ask me something! :D

What's your favorite city?

undoubtedly , Manhattan . NY , NY Lover !

okay I've had problems with people being rude, as long as you don't intend to do that, ask me something! :D

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If you could be anywhere right now, where would you be?

hard question to answer . There's a lot of things pulling me a lot of ways right now. My kids in the US , THE US , The Boy , Work prospects ..... right now I'd take a cuddle in bed .

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It's the end of the world as we know it

On Saturday just in case the world did end the boy decided we should spend it eating chocolate together . He knows there's no other way I'd rather croak it. I Loooove the cadbury's factory at Bournville , Birmingham . I loved going on school trips as a kid and still, despite the shite that's been thrown at me some things still make me feel very child like. It was an amazing few hours of rapture behaving like a child and really not caring if the world did end. If the world did end , I didnt have to feel guilty about the calorie count come sunday. ( I'm becoming decidedly podgy in my contentment) We had a beautiful day and a rapturous chocolate drizzled evening.

On Sunday we did something big (if not surviving the end of the world together wasn't big enough)

I took him to a family party . I was on tenter hooks , my family are a bit too much for me sometimes never mind a sane individual. My cousins first birthday party meant everyone had to be there and be especially loud. And daunting , especially when as soon as we get through the door I get a baby thrust upon me to hold and the boy is left with out a teacake shield. And I watch him be brave and It makes me smile. I know he's not the most socially inclined person and my family are really fucking in your face . He gets plied with beer on arrival and then the Spanish inquisition on the football scores . And he's talking to them and he's doing great and I have Lola on my knee desperately trying to keep her weening puke off my jumper seen as her grandma just gave her chocolate at six months (ick) and I realise he's drinking the beer and talking to them like he's not thinking how many calories are in it .For me he's being beautiful right there sandwiched between my Uncle and my cousin who palmed off his pukey daughter on me to watch football . He's eating meat like he lives for it and being all blokey blokey 'did you see that ludicrous display' to fit in for me . It warms me and then it gets scary , I realise he's watching me mostly , with my two baby cousins. He makes my Aunts laugh and becomes Gracies man slave when she decides that I am no longer good enough and he should shovel jelly into her mouth for her the scary bit is I realise . I know that look , its the look that's been on my face before . It's Broody . I get scared because I was so scared to try this whole relationship thing out ever again and three months down the line I'm looking at the guy next to me thats covered in jelly and baby slobber like its the best thing in the world and ... I'm not scared . Have you ever been scared about how calm you are ? Or accepting ? It's not even a bad kind of scared , it's just a kind of scared that makes me wonder if I'll loose him along the way . Cuz really , I don't want to.

It's my party and I'll cry if I want to

Wow so in two days I'll be 23 . If only I had made just that number of cock ups in my life and I could at least say I was lucky enough to average one a year . I hate my birthday in the same way I hate Christmas , mainly because It just highlights how far you didn't get an how badly you fucked up between the approaching date and last years.

Things are intrinsically different: last year I spent my birthday sobbing over my ex , over the American , over not being wanted in many areas of my life . This Year I have The boy , he's taking me to a plush hotel where no doubt I shall be spoilt rotten , given ample attention in all kinds of ways .

The boy is good . Not just chocolate good but like decent human being good . I can count the amount of people on one hand I know who are thoroughly golden examples of humanity . He works hard and he loves his family , he knows his little sister is finding it hard to fit in so he goes out of his way to be her best friend. He worked for charity on read nose day and he gave to like ten different charities besides. He knows I'm hard work and amazingly wanted me anyway. Wanted me for the sake of making me happy and content without the usual ulterior motive of seeing what they can take when the going is good and deciding I'm too much hassle for what they get out of me. He brings me tea in the mornings , he asks me about 15 times a day if I'm alright because he genuinely wants to know . He is taking the flack for things he knows other men did to me with out complaint and he doesn't get fed up and fuck off when I'm not playing ball.

I can trust him implicitly because I know he isn't hiding an addiction or a wife or a psychosis he puts his cards on the table for me to see when he has every right to keep them private and to himself . He buys me amazing presents and worries whether I skipped a meal . He sits through my random sobbing episodes and holds me until I go to sleep. He's fast becoming my best friend in a way I never got as an added bonus from most men . He takes me on romantic dates and opens doors . He looks after me in so well in such sharp contrast to the others that couldn't be arsed . And it makes me sad sometimes amongst the happy feeling and the content because two questions nag at me : What have I got left to give him in return and if I was worth it, why didn't the others treat me like that ?